Journal nTries
A year ago coming up on the December new moon I was having a blast, reflecting on life and making big plans for the new year. Here are those thoughts:
FRIDAY Dec 8 2023
I LOVE MY LIFE! Everyday I wake up around 6 and am reminded I’m on the right track. Be a benefit to yourself. Be a benefit to those around you. New moon is coming. TIme to set some goals for SG, Umoja, health, wealth, mental, personal, etc. What’s the best that could happen?
Consistent Movement. Healthy. Balanced Body. Normalized sobriety. Build a thriving black community in person and online. Money flows and grows from here. Renowned artists, lauded in dance, paint, photography, event design, creative direction, food and gardening.
SUNDAY December 10
Rainy, New Moon Energy
I woke up today to a thunder and lightning rainstorm. I hopped out of bed and pulled some things off the porch inside to the kitchen and bedroom. I laid back down for a moment before checking the time - it was already 6am. So, time to get up. I used the bathroom and played on my phone for 30 min. Smoked, comforted Yaari, then I remembered I made cake last night. Made my way to the kitchen and started cleaning. High was wearing down so I decided to grab my journal and write because I was thinking about home, holidays gifts, cleaning, this weekend, today, my weekly goals, december goals and how I feel about myself. Im balanced. All things are well. Challenging but well. Work is more challenging, yoga is more challenging, Im proud of myself. Staying organized, reaching for more, setting myself up for success and just doing the thing and learning from the experience. New moon sparked a LOT. Evolving spiritually. Pulled the page of Swords and the Ace of pentacles. New beginnings.
TUESDAY December 12
NEW MOON
Bed made, Body rested, clothes washed. Lets pull a card. We shuffled and strength popped, flipped out. Its time to level up. You are equipped with everything you need to succeed. Its advancement time and youre in the midst. Remember the analogy of life being a marathon. AT times you jog, walk, or sprint. Youll experience different terrain you need to adjust to. Its all love. Give yourself permission to be wrong, to keep going. To be brilliant, to have courage. To send yourself out there. To be judged. Have strength. We burned sage, lots of candles, gathered rain water, sat in community, fasted, cleaned and honored the team. So much. I love that we practice spirituality as a constant part of life. Life is good. Remember your connections, root to crown. I know, I see, I feel, I am, I do, I speak, I have, I seek courage, determination, courage, creativity, intelligence, power. New Moon in sagittarius and mercury goes retrograde tomorrow. All is well. I am happy and grateful. I was thinking about grace yesterday. And what a divine blessing it was. I felt like my I team was with me. I felt protected. Invincible. My soul was free. New habits. Im knowing better and doing better. 1212. Keep going, youre on the right track. I know abundance, wealth, prosperity. I am all the things already. Were waiting on you.
SATURDAY December 16
Time is moving slowly. I just smoked. Watching evolving spiritually on Youtube. Message of forward movement after a cycle of trauma. Health, wealth, things just getting better. As long as you continue to live, actively live. Success, achievement, completing the cycle of stagnation. Keep going, keep going, keep going!!! Remember the why. We did some cleaning and palmistry yesterday in between work. Moving in to places and spaces Ive been working toward. I designed my funeral program and the family newsletter. I need to stop talking to someone. Shes draining my magik. Shes a large souce of community and connection because I can be myself around her and explain less but im constantly yelling. More people to cut off to be born anew. Its exhausting. I need to teach her how to treat me. And explore relationships with people dedicated to growth understanding peace, authenticity and a deep appreciation for nature. People who make solutions not excuses. I cant keep shelling out my magik to subpar energies. Time for breakfast and some work. Imma take a shower tonight and address the front porch and guest room. Do nails tomorrow. Yoga today at 3. The old ways are done. You are in a new learning stage. Belief. Bee leaf. I feel all this, its giving energies of clearing blocks that have kept you at that lower frequency. You healed yourself with introspection, release, yoga. Your hip trauma is gone. Youve cured yourself of diabetes. Youve decided youll break cycles and live free. And were so proud. Look at your house! Look what youve manifested. Can you imagine where youll be in 10 years!!?? 10 years ago you were so SAD. Literally to the day. Pissed with life at Towergate wanting to die. Now I’ve never felt better. Off to MX in a few weeks. Im so excited for this extended stay. Ive grown so much and Im grateful for my entire SATURN RETURN. I never thought Id say that. It was definitely a journey and a battle at times. Im grateful to this body for carrying us through. For sticking with me. Its been a wild ride with an amazing team . Thank you for the level-up. Amazing tings to come.
SUNDAY December 17
I week til christmas. Im actually having a great season, great year, great life. I feel so healthy wealthy and blessed. Im grateful for my life. Its simple and abundant. Currently watching netflix. Winding down for the night. Had some good wine and put on the projector claymation rudolf, frosty heatmiser etc. I was so cute.. I also made the best cookies of my life this weekend. You really need to level the flour. And add a dash more baking soda. They are so fucking good! I also made tomato soup for the third time this season and its perfected - really ended up being a veggie soup. My secret is ginger. Its more a root veggie soup - packed with nutrient dense carrots, sweet potato and onion. The potatoes make it smoother. Some of these veggies also make it sweeter so Ive worked to balance salt, spice and sugar. No dairy. Im so happy and content with my ability to create life. I dont know whats next but I know its better than this. Which is a little scary and mostly amazing. 2024 is here, OH! and MX is booked!
MONDAY December 18
Woke up naturally at 5am this morning feeling great. Yaari is too. She been running around and meowing all day. 7 days til christmas. Im proud of my weekend. I cleaned after work on friday. And chilled mostly saturday and sunday. I did some work and kept things clean. It felt like christmas and christmas eve. Very peaceful, smelling good. Everything is working out. Gots to push the envelope more. Leveling up with travel is just the start. I also completed 90% of trip bookings which is a huge relief. Gonna make some tea and get to work. Eat the frog. Ive already made my bed and got dressed. I dont know why but I just got a vision of Sara and I in Puerto Rico with lizards and spiders gravitating towards us. That makes me believe we had magik then that I dont rememberand still cant quite understand. The interview i was watching was talking about fears and spiders. Im glad I appreciate this life more and more. Im happy to have an understanding of nature, balance and frequency. I vibe higher every moment of this existence. Stand in it. Root in confidence. You got THIS!!